To stay or Go... that is the question

So, Catie and I went to this small meeting/class at our church about getting a job and how to get a job. It was ok. I didn't mind it. The guy talk a bit too much about himself/money at the begining but overall near the end I thought it gave some decent ideas on how to search for a job better. He talked about getting to the guy who is hiring... to try and bypass the HR people who just screen you out. He talked about trying to connect with people... trying to be "one of them" on an interview. It was all good to know. (he also gave out some CDs and a resume outline which could be helpful).

So there were some good tips. BUT there was also a fair amount of GLOOM AND DOOM. The whole "Michigan is going down, get out while you can... because it is not getting better anytime soon". He gave the places that were the good ones to move to... Texas... the Carolinas. I think it freaked a lot of people out including Catie.

I think he spoke better to guys then girls. Because the woman that asked questions such as "Do you know anything about jobs in other countries". He quickly, snapped an answer of no not really unless it is mission organization and if it isn't they probably don't need you to work over there". Which is true (in the case of Mexico especially... when you don't speak Spanish) but still I think the woman almost started to cry.


Overall, his advice was ok but you are better off just emailing Dave Ramsey... because really it is a financial decision. So now Catie is freaking out AGAIN about me getting a job... which means she will be on me all the time about getting a job and freaking out when I don't get one and becoming more and more worried/depressed when I don't get one. I was enjoying the time together not being worried. Hopefully this will not be the case but either way apparently Bill was the the speak that Catie needed to hear.

For it was neither here nor there. It was helpful but also a bit unnerving at the same time. I don't know what to do though. First I need to figure out what I am called to do. Because if I were to leave everything behind that I love... it better be for a pretty sweet job... because money isn't everything (although it does help me be less stressed sometimes). So here again would be the reasons to move or not move. Pros and Cons.

Pros
I would be able to have a job and make more money
I might get a job I really love
I would be in a new environment and learn new things
I would meet new people
The kids aren't in school yet so it is easier
I would be excited about life a bit more, if it was the right job

Cons
I don't have good credit now (after this time) and would not be able to get another house, meaning 5 people in an apt
I would be leaving my family and Catie's family (which is important to us.. and take our kids)
I would be leaving all my friends
I would be leaving my church
I might move and find out I hate the job and be stuck with nothing
Catie doesn't want to move
I don't want to move
We would have to find a new group of people we trust to watch our kids
We would lose money on the house

So Catie, called today and said, "We need to finish up all the projects around the house so we can be read to move". It was really weird and sad to hear that. I know with all her heart she doesn't want to move... and honestly, I am open to the idea but NOT excited. Catie and I feel alone around here enough as it is sometimes (and we have a lot of friends). We already wish we were closer to family so we could see them more and have a break from our kids more often.

Honestly, I don't know what to think. I guess I need to pray about it more. The problem with moving somewhere is I don't even know what I want to do... I certainly know it probably isn't video... I guess it could be but I would rather do something else... less technical more people. But that might not be the reality. It just is hard for me to stomach, moving away from everything you love, not really liking a job but just getting paid a good amount. It seems like a crappy option. But sitting around doing nothing isn't working very well either... I hate that too (yet I still find happiness in other stuff... like playing video games tonight).

So here it is:
God, if you want me to move. I need it to be apparent... that is the bottom line. I will look and try not to resist where you are leading Catie and I.