Job... dilema

Well... I still have no job and have no idea where to look. The economy is crap.... and there are no jobs around here.... I am willing to look elsewhere but Catie will not. It is tough... I feel like she has found herself a bit more these days and comes home excited about work almost everyday (which is a big change).

So here is the problem. I get ChurchStaffing.com's job posts and there are 3 jobs that I could do no problem and am VERY qualified for... in fact most of them describe my job skills almost to a T. But the problem is they are all in Troy Michigan... 4 hours away. Catie will freak out if I tell her that I want to move... and I don't really want to move.... I just want a job. All the jobs are at churches (in fact 2 of them are at the church that our old Pastor, Paul, is planting out of. It is a church of 10,000 and that is a lot of people. I also don't know if I would want to work in a church seeing I am so stinkin sick of church politics... but maybe I would avoid them somehow... but I doubt it.

Catie does NOT want to move. She is going to start crying if I even mention this to her. Still, I am just a bit tempted to send in my resume... I mean maybe I wouldn't even get a call back. Who knows.... I think I might though.... unless the jobs are already filled. One of the jobs I probably wouldn't take though because it wouldn't be worth me moving for, as far as pay goes. I just don't know what to do... because I could do what they want.... easily (at least it sounds like it). Soooooo I don't know what to do. I want to keep our house. I love our friends... I am getting a bit less attached to the area... but I love the people here and love Holland. I will miss my friends. Selling the house will be a bit of a problem too because we will have to pay back a bunch of money to the city that we wouldn't have to if we lived here for 5 years.

DANG IT! It is always so hard. I am stressed BIG TIME as far as jobs go. I think about it 80% of the time... it is always on my mind. These jobs just seemed like they might be good because I literally never look at the churchstaffing posting because I don't really want to work in a church right now... but then I look today and find at least 3 I am qualified for.

I feel like I want to send out a resume but I don't think I will move unless I had to. That is just being honest... I just don't think I would do it... it is tempting though. But there is just the feeling that I would rather have Catie happy at work and find a crappy job for me for now. But on the other hand, Catie is super stressed about finances right now.

I just don't know way I have to work so hard for jobs. I literally don't think I have ever had a job just fall into my lap (except the temporary church work). I always have to search and search it seems to find any job... it sucks. It has been from age 13 to now... that is a long time.

So what do you all think? Let me know. I will pray about it too.