Trust?

So today I found out that at the end of August I am done working at my church. Bummer. It is not that they don't want me there. It is that they have no money. So that sucks. I am pretty bummed... and worried about getting another job, because frankly I don't know what I am going to do. Right now I am screwed because I need to make real money... college educated money. Freelancing won't work (I am not organized enough) and I don't really want to go to another church if I don't have to. And if we had to move, because the economy around here is absolutely terrible, we would probably lose $7,000 when selling our house...ouch.


So this is where I trust God.... I guess..... It is tough. Do I believe nothing is impossible for God as I sang on Sunday? Sometimes I don't know. I think I am ok with being done at church.... I am just scared that I won't find something to make enough money.

So life sucks... again. Catie and I were excited about her getting a job BUT now she can't because I probably won't have flexible hours sooooooo we will spend more years on government support..... yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (actually that sucks and I usually hate it). So that leaves me nowhere.

So God, I need a hand. Cause right now I am sad and confused and pissed and tired of life. I was already tired before this...

This was just the icing on a cake that life was baking for me. But at the same time I know God is going to move me somewhere I guess I need to be. I do have to trust... I do trust. It just seems kind of shitty right now.