Married

So my mom got married this weekend... it was good... a little bit weird but I am actually ok with it. I am just at peace with the whole thing. I got to walk her down the isle so that was good and strange at the same time. I just am happy that she is married and taken care of... and has a partner that is actually attrated to her...

It is so weird to think that not only are my parents not married but my mom now is married to someone else... if you would have told me that 5 years ago I don't think I would have believed you.. in fact I know I wouldn't have believed you. Wow... in just a few years the people I thought I knew the most are in the most different places I would have though. I also realized I didn't know either of them very well... I saw them through the rose colored glasses they put on me. A life that seemed good on the outside but was really tough in fact. I realized my mom was really needy and had no idea how to take care of herself (but I will say she has grown a ton over the past few years). And then there is my dad... I found out he led a secret life and was not the man that he seemed... to anyone. He is still a good dad and grandpa, I just will always have a hard time knowing if I can believe him and what he tells me. But that is a whole other issue.

So my kids will have a bunch of grandparents now (or at least it seems like it). I still don't know what to do about my dad's partner, especially if they stay together for a long time (which I think is possible) I guess they will just call him by his first name...

So that is all... those are the thing I think about and struggle with as far as my parents go. I will say it makes me feel like I will make my marriage last no matter what... it sucks to be on the other side... the kid of divorced parents.