Missing Creativity

So I am doing freelance video work and I am now starting to not like video as much. It is forced; time is what is important.... creativity is a distant second at best. I miss the creativity. People don't want creative most of the time, it just matters how fast you move "the product" to their door step.

I think I am running into exactly what my friend Jay (who happens to be a really good artist especially in pottery) said to me a while back. He told me that when you are forced to just produce and use your creativity to just simply make money as quickly as possible you being to lose enjoyment in what you used to love.

Now I wouldn't call myself an artist... I think am creative though. I love creative stuff and I think that way with color and sound and stuff that simulates the senses... I live by emotion. I just can't continue to "crank out" videos to just get some cash.... but at the same time the fam needs to eat so I will do whatever it takes to make the money.

So what do I do? Hopefully something will open up but at this point I am willing to drop media to pursue a job that is more about people and God, but who knows. I guess God controls the outcome.... the problem is as I said in my last blog I have to wait. But I do know just doing practical videos everyday is "killing my creativity" in a lot of ways... so I will have to do something about that.