A prayer thought

I just need some alone time to think and pray... blogging is one outlet but I need to make sure I take the time to pray and read the Bible too.

I am just so... frustrated with life right now... well kind of... this week has been a good break from the norm. I have gotten a lot done but I am stressed out about money right now.. which always puts me in a bad mood. Like I said in an earlier blog... I have the hardest time actually trusting God with my finances in tight situations... now we have always made it through the hard times (and I know that is thanks to God) but I still just never fully say, "Hey God... this is yours... my family, my finances and my life. I truly trust you and put everything in your hands because frankly I can't do this anymore."

I can't do life on my own anymore... not even pieces of it. God I give this to you... my house, my kids, my finances, my future... they are yours. I just pray that I can fully submit my life to you... I pray that you keep me energized and excited about you... and focused on you in hard times and in amazing times. I pray that I am not tired in life... and not tired thinking about life. Really, my life is good... it is blessed... I am blessed with a really awesome family, really good true friends and good jobs with people I love to be around. Not many people can say that.. so thank you God for that... for giving me more than I realize.. more than I need... you are amazing.

God, I just pray that you make my be who you need me to be at this point in my life. I pray that you send people to me at work that I need to talk to (whether they need to talk to me or I need to talk to them). Help me to know how to be a Christian that represents you to people who don't know you and who have a negative perception of Christians because frankly, I don't know how to be Jesus people. I think I just need more compassion... God give me more compassion.

On a side note... I just thank you for music... cause it is awesome and helps me to relax and see beauty in more things.

So that is all. I didn't plan this blog to be a prayer. In fact I am not to sure about posting it... but this is my random thought blog... so you will have to deal with it if you read my stuff :) Cause I write for me... you are just allowed into my head every few days.