Pursue more

So I was really anxious all weekend.... and really all week. I have no idea why.... it could have been because my dad was coming over this weekend but I don't think so (who knows though). I did realize in the past week I have read my Bible less and prayed less and as a result I have been more stressed and less patient. It is not a good combo. I am realizing I need to get up earlier for work... give myself some time to just get ready and not hurry all day (plus Noelen has been getting up between 5:45-7:00am every morning so I need to beat him getting up... so he doesn't get into everything).... like this morning.... when I woke up, I went downstairs to see a silohotte of him stop dead in his tracks (as he saw me) and then take off running as fast as he could into the bathroom; slamming the door behind him. Of course at this point, I run after him and open the bathroom door and see what he has. He had been into Catie's pursue and was eating her gum.... I wasn't too mad about that... It was a bit frustrating but more humorous.

He is funny about trying to hide things he does now. He will get something and hide under the table. Or yesterday he went into the kitchen and took the whole container of raisins and put them in his bowl. I wouldn't have noticed if he hadden't been trying to cover his bowl up (that I gave him earlier). If he would have just acted natural... I wouldn't have noticed but because when I came in the room he tried not to look at me and was using both hands to cover his bowl... I knew something was up. And later I paid for his mistake with 3 messy poop diapers... too many raisins....

Every time he hides I always think of the story of Adam and Eve trying to hide from God in the garden. It is funny.. well not really but kind of. Because it is not like God didn't know what was going on... come on he is God. He is like the ultimate parent... nothing gets by him. So when all of a sudden your children are hiding from you, and wearing clothes.... you quickly figure out they did something stupid... something they shouldn't have done. It just makes me remember that you can hide nothing from God. (not that I have tons of secrets). But for me something I struggle with sometimes is anger... I keep it inside a lot but still... God knows my heart. He know the words that God through my mind.... he know my angry thoughts, my lustful thoughts, my prideful and selfish thoughts... all of them.

I think as I go through this week I need to really remember to start out every prayer with a time of repentance.... when Catie and I went through that audio series together I think that was the best pray of it.... during every prayer time there was a repentance time... it just cleared the lines between me and God... I could feel it.

So as I move on this week I need to remember to submit to God, and send time with him. Be COMPLETELY open to him. Telling him all of me.