So it is Monday. Another Monday.... today has been an ok day. I am still recovering from a certain surgery that was supposed to be a short recovery BUT it hasn't been... there have been a few complications... but I think it will be done soon hopefully (everything is pretty much ok but it is just taking a bit more time than normal.
I still have no job.... and I am running out of job perspectives.... I hate this... it is stupid.. yeah yeah the economy and what not; I know I know. I just don't know what to do. I did hear a good word from a message I heard yesterday. The pastor said, " Maybe you are in your financial situation because that is were God wants you right now". And I thought.... wow that really hits me... but it also made me say, "What am I supposed to be doing right now, then?" Because this whole not working thing is not working...I really should send more time with God.
So I don't know what to do. I am just left waiting and waiting and waiting. I am not doing all that well. I fell kind of like I just want to run away and hide. I have no patience for anyone ... it is hard. I just am left unsure of what to do. I am tired and unhappy. I just have no ... anything... I don't know... I am done... I feel done for now... I just want to run away from everything.
AFTER A BREAK:
So I went to church to finish editing a wedding video I did a while ago. It went pretty well. It was a cool wedding where they really worshiped... it was refreshing for me to see the groom so in love with God. It was nice to just sit and zone for a while (editing). I got a chance to talk to Dave for a few minutes which was cool too. I was telling him about the message on Sunday that I heard at WOW. Hopefully he wasn't mad I went there to check it out and skipped his (I suspect he didn't care much at all). But it was cool to think back on why I liked the message... I was a bit surprised that I remembered as much as I did. Dave asked what the message was about...(sometimes I think Dave asks what a message was about that you said was "really good" just to see if you actually remember what it was about..... but I remembered!)
Anyways, I really would like to edit more as I am just finding my groove but I am just dumping in footage for like 45 minutes so I don't know if i will stay.
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Dude - that's not why I asked about the message. I just wanted to know what Ross preached. I wasn't checking to see if you actually remembered. And I'm not mad that you missed my message. I really don't care. But you did miss a rockin message that would have totally transformed your life and altered your reality forever!
I so totally understand the wanting to run away part. Right now my destination is Rivendale from the Lord of the Rings trilogy. I have kind of been in that mode for quite some time now, but am not finding any relief from it. I ended up going to Mana last Sunday and also heard a great message for me. It was about keeping the "main thing" the "Main thing" all the time and not getting caught up in all the "good things". It sounds really complicated as I try to explaing it in writing, but it was actually simple when he finally got the point accross to me and my simple head. I think I have been running far too long and its time for me to get back to basics, but I just dont know where. I need to find someone to talk it out with and John can't be that person right now unfortunately. My counselor just quit so I need to find a new one i think. Josh I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I know God has something great for you as long as you stay faithful to Him. Cati is great and your kids are beautiful. If you and Cati ever need a break I would love to take them for an evening or an afternoon for the two of you. We even have bunk beds now so we could take them over night if you would like. I mean that too, it is not just an empty offer. I cleared it with John and he loved having the kids that one day too. Sheesh this is more of an email than a comment. If I had your email I would have sent it that way. Take care I pray daily for your family. We love you guys.
Dave,
That is what I figured but it was either you or Jared who used to say they asked what the "great" message was about and a lot of times people didn't remember.
Kim,
Thanks. I appreciate that. I think we may take you up on that. I will keep you posted.
my email is brickhauch@yahoo.com
I think it was Jared, because I don't recall saying that.
Mine is kimberlydecamp@yahoo.com
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