seriously a lot of times I get more out of Wednesday nights then other times. It was a good Wednesday night for me.
I think I had vented a lot of my frustrations and felt genuinely listened too (which I normally feel listened to).
So tonight the talk was about watching your tongue and I was just convicted about not always being nice... in fact I felt bad about some of the stuff I wrote in my last post. I has being really harsh and not very building up of people. In fact I was embarrassed of some of what I said. So first off I say sorry to all who read it. And secondly, I deleted it... one of those times that you want the words back but it is a bit too late.
I do follow up by saying this. Ken is a great guy, I think he is a great administrator and that he really does care about people. He cares about me and I know that. I just don't think he is leading the church to reach the next generation. The same is true of Ann. She is a really hard worker and puts in a lot of time into children's ministry and women's ministry, but like Ken I often found that she likes what she is comfortable with, which is often not changing. But I love them all. They have done a lot for me and my family. I have learned a lot. And whether I am around LVC for a long time is not really their problem. They are trying but sometimes it doesn't work if you aren't passionate about something.
I also would hate to see Ken go from the church. I think he is a great Associate pastor... not just a good administrative guy.
It is a tough situation. I am kind of glad I am not being dumped on (like they often get)... but I also wish I was a part of it.... I do miss the discussion part when I was apart of it.
Yeah so again I apologize I think it was a bit to much of a vent.... I often just free flow my thoughts on my blog.... which doesn't always work because people actually read it.
So, I am sorry!
3 comments:
Josh I understand why you are apologizing and also why we have to watch what we say about other people because we dont want to break they down. I too believe that Ken and Ann are good people. I also believe they are doing the best job they can. I dont believe they are the best fit for the jobs they are in. Ann was fantastic leading the women's ministry she is also a very passionate prayer warrior. Ken is compassionate, wonderful about hospital calls and doing counseling type stuff,IF he is not too busy with other stuff. I agree admin is not his calling, but he has a valuable place in ministy. Dave is blessed with a calling for youth and a passion for it. When everyone is working their calling, thing are great, but when people step outside thei calling or have to do too much, stress steps in, people are tired, out of their comfort zones and outside of God's calling for them. It's like trying to clap out of rythm. Our church has been functioning that way for so long and it's tired. You are just feeling that same fatigue and verbalized it. I believe that all of us in that congregation need to be able to get out our frustrations and talk it out together so that we can begin to heal together. I dont mean to "Ken Bash" or anything like that, but all the silence isn't allowing anything to heal either. I wasn't offended infact it was nice to know that someone else had feelings like me. We have been hurt in much the same way, job wise at the church and it was nice to have someone else in my court.
hmmm interesting and good to know. I still just felt I need to delete the post. I do still have all those feelings but just felt I didn't verbalize then quite the way I needed to.... thats all.
But I am glad you got something out of it :)
Maybe I should just read and not comment anymore. Then people wont feel as if you are influencing others
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