3 is a bit harder

So I think 3 kids will be a bit more than I imagined. It is going to be crazy around here. They are all going to be really young... but I guess that is how we wanted it. All really close... 3 under 3 and 3 in diapers (hopefully Noelen will potty train soon).

I just am glad for TV right now. Noelen is watching Curious George and Soe is in bed again (she was being grumpy) and Catie and Jude are sleeping. SO now I have a moment to write.

The baby this week has made me think about the future more, that and the fact that our church is not doing so well financially... meaning I am not sure what is happening with my job there. It is though but it is just a reality I guess. I am trying to figure out if God is pushing me out of Lakeshore on to another church or another job or maybe neither.

I just know that I can't/don't want to do the part-time thing forever. I love being there most of the time but I do need to figure some stuff out. I think this part of my life is necessary and shaping me more into what God wants me to be. (I never could have had the church experience I've had over the past few years anywhere else... and I certainly learned a lot). I have been seriously thinking about taking some seminary classes online if possible. But Catie and I were talking and she needs to go and get a social work masters to get into the field she wants to (non-profit stuff) and we need the income of a real job (and she would be so happy doing that kind of stuff... she is so passionate about people in need).

We will see where this take me. God only knows I guess. I have to remember not to stress over this... it is just hard not to. I really want to go into ministry and I realize there don't seem to be too many options around here (unless you start as a youth leader and work your way up). I just don't know if I want to start as a youth leader.... I certainly don't want to be a senior pastor or anything but some kind of a pastor... working with people.

I often find myself wondering if I should just go into media stuff but I REALLY don't want to. I would just be looking for a way out the whole time...before I even started the job (unless it was a media job that I works mostly with people... and is about helping people.... and not super stressful (which most media and video stuff is)).

So, as I type it doesn't seems as if I am giving much to God. I really want to do that.... give myself fully to God. Submit to him. Stu gave a really good message on that on Sunday... just learning who God is (a bit more) and submitting your life fully to Him..... I will try and do that more in my life

Quick note: I was typing and eating Golden Grahams and Noelen came over and asked for a bite.. so I gave him a few until it was gone.... then he all of a sudden stuck his whole face in my bowl and slurped out all the milk.