Things I have learned Day #21

#21. I am having a really hard time figuring out where God is taking me


My life journey is always on the move and never stable. I have the possibility to get a job at Cornerstone University in the marketing department (with the help of my old professor) and I applied but I really feel unsure about the whole thing. I would feel really under qualified... mostly because I don't know web stuff and don't know graphic design really well and on top of that I don't know Adobe After Affects... so that means I know video and audio well but don't know much about the other half. I would just be really nervous to say... yep, I can do that.... but the job would be pretty good. I think I would like it. I wouldn't like the 2 hours of communiting every day but... it could lead to something better.

That being said I just don't know if God is leading me to do more media. I have really felt called into something more about people and less about doing media. I have already done years of media and know it is not where I want to be right now. I think I am more confused too because I am going to start working with a friend of mine doing construction/remodeling work for the summer and hopefully in the spring I will be able to work with a non-profit he started (maybe through Americore). But a bunch of this is up in the air as well...

So I am praying for it all... praying into it... praying that God gives me clarity. It is just hard to live life following God, because practically speaking if the C-stone job offer came around I would seem to be dumb for not taking it BUT what if I am supposed to take the lesser paying position because that is where I am being called...? I know with where the family and I have been in the last year I would be stupid to not take the C-stone job BUT is that really true? What if much of life is not about money... what if almost none of life is about money but we just make it that? I don't know...